So I’m on that kind of college-student, who supports herself with a low paying part-time job kind of budget. The little money I receive from family helps out with food and toilet paper and things like that. But that doesn’t leave a lot of money for the most important thing! CLOTHES!!
Sometimes I catch myself and realize that I’m falling into a cycle. A bad one.
I’ve been away for a while. A long while. Partially because of college, work and newspaper. Mainly because I really enjoy sleeping and binge watching. Anyway, I’ve also spent a lot of time organizing and planning a trip that I plan on taking next May. I’m very excited but I want to wait to give more details until I know that everything is concrete.
After scrolling down Man Repeller for ages and reading a particularly interesting article by my favorite, I thought “hey I want to write something like that”. Then I thought “wait I have a blog!?”
In another week or two I’ll be entering into my first year of college. The process has been ridiculous and difficult and I’m going through a lot of red tape that none of my friends are having to deal with. Despite that though, I’m still really excited and hopeful that everything will just work out because I have no time to be sad or stress out about things that I can’t change or help.
In just a few short weeks, a few million kids, sorry-adults, will begin a journey in their lives.
After spending four years transitioning from baby things into baby adults and learning about the world,ourselves and other people, we are finally done pretending like we actually did any of those things. So as a result of the closing of this chapter in our lives I came up with a short list of things we did (and didn’t) learn in, you guessed it…
I’m not sure if there are many young adults who are fully aware and/or confident in what they want to do or become in their lives. There is a lot of pressure on us to become something amazing. Not only financially successful but also creative and charismatic. Charitable and hard-working. This forces a lot of people into choosing between dreams and reality. This is a constant battle that I’ve had with myself. Though, It’s not so much a battle anymore, more of a war at this point. Continue reading “Fighting Yourself,For Yourself”
I swear this post was intended to be something fun that outlined my 18th birthday and how excited I was and everything but of course me being me, that is not what happened. I don’t know, I guess I felt that this was a little more important and mattered a bit more to me. I may still write the fun birthday post but I’m not exactly sure yet. Anyway, here’s 18.
We live in a society that ignores,shames and places unnecessary burdens upon our youth. From the viewpoint of many of our “elders” our opinions and insights into the world around us are often perceived as wrong or not taken into consideration because we lack a certain number of years behind us. We lack ” experience”, therefore we have no grounds to stand on when making statements about social issues, the economy or anything really.
Before we have even started our lives and graduated from college, many of us are already in debt. Student loan debt is at an all time high and the job search has only increased in difficulty. This only makes starting a life more difficult for us,and the worst part is, these conditions are a direct result of generations before us. We will bear the burden of the mistakes of our parents and grandparents and i’m sure our children will bear ours. Because, unfortunately, this is how our society operates.
As a nation, we’ve always looked down on people we consider to be inferior. Whether it is race, gender,age or sexual orientation, someone is always considered to be lower than someone else. Of course,me being a female, and a black teenager, I’m basically at the bottom of the totem pole. When my 18th birthday passed least week, of course I was happy. 18 is supposed to be an accomplishment, something to be celebrated but when you take into consideration all of the negatives of adulthood, all the responsibility that comes within the next few years, things get a little less festive.
We are “adults”. But we really aren’t. We have to learn to be responsible. But we really can’t. Our system is created to give us just enough freedom to no longer be considered children but not enough to actually be completely responsible for ourselves. We still can’t drink,in some places we can’t rent cars. Of course we’ll still find our way around any of these rules.
We can vote but most of us don’t because we don’t think it matters, which is perhaps one of the saddest facts of all. We have a great amount of influence and extreme amounts of power, but we don’t use it because most of us don’t understand how.
To wrap up all of my ranting; We are put into a peculiar situation because we are lead to believe that adulthood is something to be excited about. For many of us,though,this is still true. However, for the most part, we still aren’t exactly seen as adults. Often times our opinions are overlooked, and we are convinced that they don’t matter when , in reality, the exact opposite is true.
18 is a year that signifies adulthood, responsibility and all of the other great things that we love so much. But honestly when it’s taken into consideration, 18 doesn’t really signify anything.
I know it sounds so dumb saying this since I’m literally 17 years old. But I’ll be 18 soon and college is right around the corner and honestly I’m slowly and quietly freaking out on the inside.
I know how this sounds to people who are actual adults with actual responsibilities. It’s not like i’m leaving high school to go raise a family and start paying a mortgage. But for the first time in my life, I’ll be paying for my education. Failing a class has actual repercussions and I’ll be solely responsible for my day to day life.
My older brother didn’t go to college so this is the first time my immediate family will be doing this. So it’s not only me, I’m sure my family is freaking out too because it’s so new to us.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m extremely excited. I can’t wait to be independent and learn new things and people. These are things that I’ve always wanted to do so I’m really excited to finally being doing them.
I’m sure I’ll be posting more and more posts like this as college approaches. I’m always thinking about it so it’s gonna be a hot topic.
There’s really only a few things that I want out of my life. I want to be happy and have a lifestyle with enough freedom to do what I want whenever I decide to. I also want to travel. Everywhere. All the time. Forever.